I've been politicized by hansip TPS near my house,
"gak apa-apa neng, ibu eneng nyebrangnya lambat, biar lambat asal selamat", gitu katanya.

BEUH!

OKE! emang lambat asal selamat itu bagus,
secara gue juga orangnya lambat, dan memang masih selamet-selamet aje.
Tapi sampe kapan orang sini milih orang populis yang gak jelas ujung tanduknya dimana..
Biar ngomel-ngomel gini, gue tetep nyontreng, koq.




tetap semangat ya Indonesia,
disini kami pun sedang berjuang!

we almost forget that the world is hungry for foods, oils and gasses
global financial crisis et cetera
here we are here we are

mother earth, we just trying to have fun beyond the indescribable situation made by ourselves.
mother earth, don't cry. Because these girls seems to be happy living up above you.

Dhejih lives in boredom.

percakapan super penting di hari ini:

dhe kamu SP?

iya tapi lagi gak ngapa-ngapain

SP koq gak ngapa-ngapain

iya soalnya abis uts cuman ujian dua hari..

oh. gak ada KP ya?

kerangka pemikiran

HAHAHA.. bukannnn.. kerja praktek, dhe..

*disconnected*

sekarang saya tau apa yang membuat diri ini bosan setengah mati. GA ADA KP! kuliah ga ada KP oh no oh yes! Coba aja waktu itu ambil teknik informatika atau teknik yang lainnya, hidup takkan hampa. nyebut dhe nyebut! *astagajimm*

Hubungan Internasional adalah sebuah jurusan yang luar biasa lain daripada yang lain. Saya bangga berada didalamnya meski hidup terasa tak hidup. Hidup dengan piece of paper dan kerangka pemikiran orang lain. Menaruh dogma orang lain dalam otak kita dan sedemikian rupa mengimplementasikannya dalam kehidupan sehari-hari, to be realis or idealis.. WHATEVER things, lah.

taun depan saya lulus jadi sarjana HI. ASIKK!!
(banana dance ala plurk.com)

mau melakukan sesuatu yang berarti dan tidak membuat hampa hidup ah. Bagaimana caranya? rahasia dong ah. *gini nih klo ga ada jawaban pasti* Tapi saya mau sekolah lagi setinggi-tingginya tinggi, mau jadi mahaguru mahatma gendeng mahabharata! Pasti mahasiswanya pada naksir ya, terus pada semangat belajar trus hidup mereka gak akan hampa kayak saya yang tidak dihujani dosen kece. HAHAHAHA cita-cita tinggi yang berprospek dangkal.


katanya kalo make wish di hari jumat, 87% akan terkabul.
AMINNNNN!!

been a while since we're apart
and today, you're on your next plane away from me

sweetest goodbye to my (oh-NO!-ex)boyfriend

it's been three years gone by
you're always stood beside me, darl.
but look at you, look at me... we're not holding hand, walking down the street, have fun with the rain, and singing blue sky song anymore.

oh... I'm gonna miss you.
when will i see your eyes again? catching wind together again?
fight against those silly people passing by.

so sad but true, this is real goodbye.
no more time together, no second chance.

just release...

God, please take care of him.
Thank you.

dear dad...

lets have some meeting
what about tomorrow? three o'clock in the morning..

i need to talk with you personally, i miss you dad.
it hurts so much. it is you who always see me cry.
but tomorrow will be different, you will see me smile and even laugh.

see you tomorrow, dad. Don't be late!



your silly-insane-cutest-daughter give kiss from the air,
dhea.





PS: don't tell God we're going to meet secretly tomorrow, okay? are you promise?

happy birthday!

You cannot see the walls that divide your hand
From his or hers or mine when you think you touch it.

You cannot see the walls because they are glass,
And glass is nothing until you try to pass it.

Beat on it if you like, but not too hard,
For glass will break you even while you break it.

Shout, and the sound will be broken and driven backwards,
For glass, though clear as water, is deaf as granite.

This fraudulent inhibition is cunning: wise men
Content themselves with breathing patterns on it.

(A. S. J. Tessimond)

so this is my twenty first coming. feels like hanging in the air.
approaching to highly effective situation made by the light.
i convinced myself to say.. i'm ready whatever will come, i'm ready

Being 21 this time, this year.. is a tough thing to face. Why? today i came home, and my mom asked me, “where have you been?” Simple question, an everyday’s question. But my head is just flown away to some part of distinctive area so called my own room and think it over and over... Where i have been. What i have done. How this half of life goes on rapidly. I’m scared. I’m excited. Today. Not feeling special anymore. But i guess, i’m feeling GREAT! Happy birthday dhea!

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thx to:
Aurea Vienna, for calling me out you make my day!
to my Mum, for hug and kisses and pray


thx for remembering my birthday
God bless you all.

it's thursday!
and it is coming!

SKIP

simple wish i had for today..
skip my thursday and moving on this June quickly!

and if tomorrow still want to come,
i will face it though.
there comes the enemy.. twenty-first attack!
and i will fight!

june sixth - finding a bee to brighten up my day

once upon a time...

---picturecensored---

i found his smile.
no he's not my boyfriend, he's an artist.
he likes everything i like the most, that's why i like him.
and we'll meet again someday.

senyum kedua dibulan Juni

[hihihihihi]

pagi-pagi buta gini senyum sendiri

deg-degan sendirii

aw aw

today is my another favorite seven day in sunny June!!

*dhea kamu gak jelas sekali sihh!

so this is it!

Could it be this
The story in your eyes
Tell of silent wings
You fly away on.

Seven days in sunny June
Were long enough to bloom
The flowers on the sunbeam dress you wore in spring
Yeah yeah, the way we laughed as one
Why did you drop that bomb on me

(jamiroquai - seven day in sunny June)

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so this is it!

my twenty first coming is ongoing

June oh June

i love you so much

one girl with one hope

So this post is dedicated to my little-mysterious-funny-friend, named again you not need to know. She has a wonderful life, wonderful friend, wonderful smile and wonderful dog. She passed her half-timeline with lots of laughter and crazy-wild kind of life that she could never imagine. Once she had this moment, she convinced herself not to change those beautiful scene she had before today.

So what was up today? she is sick.


She told me not to sad or even cry for her life changing. She can never be like yesterday, she can never have the same day like she used to, but she wants me to made up the situation just like what she had. I cannot tell a lie. I believe that there's no white lies in this world. I want to make her happy, happier than today. But i just.. can't made up those situation she wanted to.

Pretending to be okay.

Showing fake-stupid smile.

Lying to her friend(s).

I guess this is enough. I can't stand it anymore. Girl, you know you're not well enough to stand alone. Share. Share. Share is all i want to do with you. Don't go faster or even slow down. Walk with me my dear, face the fact. If tomorrow never ever comes to you as what you wish, just enjoy this day as much as you can.


No need to hide your pain anymore. Because you know, i'll be here. Always...
If there's is no second chance, just believe in miracle.
God show me your love. Just give her one time, to be happy. One time to say sorry. One time to give people smile. One time to say thank to You.




I'm begging you please.

she's optimistic OKAY

"If death meant just leaving the stage long enough to change costume and come back as a new character... Would you slow down? or speed up?"

sudden death dream*

*oh thank God!

I'm still awake now.
what a relief!