sweetest goodbye to my (oh-NO!-ex)boyfriend

it's been three years gone by
you're always stood beside me, darl.
but look at you, look at me... we're not holding hand, walking down the street, have fun with the rain, and singing blue sky song anymore.

oh... I'm gonna miss you.
when will i see your eyes again? catching wind together again?
fight against those silly people passing by.

so sad but true, this is real goodbye.
no more time together, no second chance.

just release...

God, please take care of him.
Thank you.

dear dad...

lets have some meeting
what about tomorrow? three o'clock in the morning..

i need to talk with you personally, i miss you dad.
it hurts so much. it is you who always see me cry.
but tomorrow will be different, you will see me smile and even laugh.

see you tomorrow, dad. Don't be late!



your silly-insane-cutest-daughter give kiss from the air,
dhea.





PS: don't tell God we're going to meet secretly tomorrow, okay? are you promise?

happy birthday!

You cannot see the walls that divide your hand
From his or hers or mine when you think you touch it.

You cannot see the walls because they are glass,
And glass is nothing until you try to pass it.

Beat on it if you like, but not too hard,
For glass will break you even while you break it.

Shout, and the sound will be broken and driven backwards,
For glass, though clear as water, is deaf as granite.

This fraudulent inhibition is cunning: wise men
Content themselves with breathing patterns on it.

(A. S. J. Tessimond)

so this is my twenty first coming. feels like hanging in the air.
approaching to highly effective situation made by the light.
i convinced myself to say.. i'm ready whatever will come, i'm ready

Being 21 this time, this year.. is a tough thing to face. Why? today i came home, and my mom asked me, “where have you been?” Simple question, an everyday’s question. But my head is just flown away to some part of distinctive area so called my own room and think it over and over... Where i have been. What i have done. How this half of life goes on rapidly. I’m scared. I’m excited. Today. Not feeling special anymore. But i guess, i’m feeling GREAT! Happy birthday dhea!

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thx to:
Aurea Vienna, for calling me out you make my day!
to my Mum, for hug and kisses and pray


thx for remembering my birthday
God bless you all.

it's thursday!
and it is coming!

SKIP

simple wish i had for today..
skip my thursday and moving on this June quickly!

and if tomorrow still want to come,
i will face it though.
there comes the enemy.. twenty-first attack!
and i will fight!

june sixth - finding a bee to brighten up my day

once upon a time...

---picturecensored---

i found his smile.
no he's not my boyfriend, he's an artist.
he likes everything i like the most, that's why i like him.
and we'll meet again someday.

senyum kedua dibulan Juni

[hihihihihi]

pagi-pagi buta gini senyum sendiri

deg-degan sendirii

aw aw

today is my another favorite seven day in sunny June!!

*dhea kamu gak jelas sekali sihh!

so this is it!

Could it be this
The story in your eyes
Tell of silent wings
You fly away on.

Seven days in sunny June
Were long enough to bloom
The flowers on the sunbeam dress you wore in spring
Yeah yeah, the way we laughed as one
Why did you drop that bomb on me

(jamiroquai - seven day in sunny June)

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so this is it!

my twenty first coming is ongoing

June oh June

i love you so much